Attitude Problem

A lot of things happened and I totally have to no idea of where to begin with. So, I wrote this random 'opening' to my preceding entry. hmm, start with Chingay shall we?

Just felt that we could have done better. I should have controlled my temper, to embrace, not just to tolerate. Cos' there's limit to a person's tolerance, but its unlimited to embrace. And before today, or rather before that particular training, i was still tolerating. Perhaps, thats why I blew up that day. Problems are that the central command are not giving the trainers enough time to coach/update new changes as and when. Perhaps, the communication part could have done better via good liasing with block in charge. Then again, 8 to 12 groups with only 2 Block ICs is not enough. How do we expect them to run to and fro umpteen times for say 90m at least? They arent track runners yea. So I suggested in a sarcastic plus angsty manner, "perhaps the trainers should just use handphones during training to communication with the block in charge." So block ICs wouldnt have to run so much and, when there are new/LAST MINUTE changes, we can be notified immediately via sms. Maybe this method is a little absurd i.e. not the usual way, but at least this method ensures everyone knowing the changes quick. And i guess, rather obvious, my suggestion wasnt taken into consideration cos' people there, then, thought im just spitting angsty comments. And what was remembered, again I guess, is my hot temper. lol great? This isnt the end to it, problem doesnt just lie with the top management crisis, but also amongst the trainers. and surprisingly, it wasnt the problem with the participants but the trainers and above. what a joke. With trainers i wrote, just meant trainer. ONE. my partner. I would really hope that what I heard was just a hearsay/heard wrongly/interpret wrongly. The info that I got was, "he said, 'you always no voice one leh'." This means, he's always doing the double work; admin and training. Simply said, I AM DOING NOTHING. applause please. who was the one that did the training in PA. who was the one who tried to shout during group training at f1 pit. I was the one who needed all help. clearly, we could have swapped roles, i suggested for that a few times, but he rejected. Now what? Im doing nothing? Right, maybe I shouldnt have exerted so much. Look, I dont expect him/them to appreciate my efforts, but please dont discredit my efforts. Seriously... Im dreading.

Studies, fine with i feel that I could do better than just being fine. FCH!

For the past week, Ive been falling sick even till now. Super upset! Guess what? I have no voice :) great way to end the year yes? :(

Tried baking cupcakes for the first time, and was a success :) good commentaries by friends and neighbours, despite it looking plain. great! and for the first time, i didnt like 30 plus cupcakes at one go. Didnt get to try full cupcakes, just a few bites here and there and ample to make me fall ill :P

writing blog entry is such a chore..

brumboomdoomdoodoodododo

hellyeah, I have! how awesome is that :D

And, in a blink of eyes, 2011 gonna be over soon... That means, the most dreaded big big examinations' round the corner. But before that, many jolly events gonna unleash itself infront of us or me at least. Christmas! New year! Chinese new year! friends' 21st! and maybe valentines day? lol Ya' know, I cant wait to get new pieces of clothes :P despite the overflowing wardrobe and me having to 'borrow' my mum's closet to hold my stuff. hiakhiak she's ranting, everyday she steps into her room and spot those clothes hanging around and inside her closet. HAHHAHA told ya, i need a closet revamp. BIGGER CLOSET. but somehow, I just dont wear prettily. lol someone please empathise with me can? Perhaps, Im just lazy to wear pretty clothes out. Cos' with pretty outfit, my actions have to be pretty also. Hence, no big movements from me, no HAHAHA from me, no lame and random stuff from me. So as to say, ONLY POISELOOK is allowed. so difficult to maintain la!~~~ Its only appropriate of elaine to wear only shorts/jeans and tshirts. simple like that. and a backpack. :)

My year end resolution. (gonna carry forward to the next year)
1. still gonna get my fricking grade 3-5 for guitar
2. manage time well and start baking as and when or else the ingrdients' will be expired :( (vacation plans)
3. Learn at least 2 languages
4. be a better daughter, a better friend
5. WORK! go for internship. and SAVE LUI (vacation plans)
6. no more nonsense from me, and start chionging for exams! count down 3mths to prelim
7. abide by the diet rules
8. learn new skills; first aid, computer, etc and whatever 

So yup! Thats bout it! :) go elaine go!

life's surprises

The all time favourite love song. Im missing my JC life :( The hectic geeks life, the good days life when despite all difficulties I still went out to play. very ang kong kia indeed.

Love love love

Joining Chingay, being district Leader, taking up challenging roles aint a bad move. Like what said, defining challenges and problems, both is only separated by a thin fine line. Yes, and a little bit of being optimistic. But, optimistic people won't always look at the bright side of life when real bad thing strikes. Optimistic people, when facing problems will just "aiya, never mind one la" but i tell you, deep down in their hearts they confirm plus chop cursing like hell.

hah, so, I inspire to be a more sincere person :) And i feel that taking up challenges and polishing yourself is a concurrent effort. Not that you have to be a good person with good time management, know how to balance and juggle with work and family, with good relationship with people, before you could take up any challenging tasks. no no. If thats the case, then, you will never soon to be good in any aspects. Ask me whats the short cut to happiness? Challenges. And whats the short cut to overcoming challenges? No short cut. cos' short cut is what people in singapore are gradually doing, not all, just the minority, but there's an increasing trend. you have to be strong. you have to have someone there to guide you along to give you the sense of direction when you've missed it.

Aside these strict stuffs....

Yes, and you wonder why the hell elaine puts up this photo?!

 I totally can feel that Im secretly wanting to get married. really! hahha not the marriage that entices me, its the wedding itself in face :P its interesting! Ugh, must be the wedding shots going around in Facebook. They have super pretty wedding photos! Cant take it ughh

When things are falling apart

Hello evaryyyboorrrddiiii, im gettin slacken. Cut me some slack will you?

Alright, nothing much happened by the way. Its just the normal routine, school, chingay, meeting, family, friends. No shopping, nothing happening. Nothing happening by this sense refer to what many think it should be something out of the norm. For example, a clubber studies! Ahuh, so, studying is that happening thing! :P So, a dork like me... hmm mmm nothing much. Loving the company of my friends really :) Guess, Im starting to appreciate and cherish and daring to love them even more. Studies, seem like Im falling into the abyss of carefree where studies dont bother me. Or rather, I dont bother studying :( Not to that very jialat extent, but Im not studying as often as I ought to be, seems like it. hmm.

Maybe I shouldnt be so crazy? I still hold strong my claim of acting like a kid is perfectly fine. Dont cha think so? Choosing the right time to act like a kid, and know when to behave like an adult. Its very important. In life, oftentimes, we think what we are doing is right. But, no, sometimes we dont even have the ability to discern between the right and the wrong. I guess, the criteria of it really depends on what philosophy we are learning. For many others out there, your philosophy could be live life without regrets i.e. do what you want, perhaps not to the extent of committing crimes but say, bullying people? Or, travel around the world when you're young spending the money earned by your parents? Many things we think or do, are like double-edged sword. Has its pros and cons.

People who dont really know me, see me as a crazy stress woman. hahha, I think a lot. By "a lot" here, is definitely an understatement. So guys, do you still dare to claim you know me? No. Cos sometimes, prolly, you dont even know yourself. By the way, I really like friends who can read your mind :) really. hearts them loads.

Was on my way back home from school yesterday. When the bus leaves its bus stop lane, cutting to the side lane (usually where people smoke, and cars are parked at temporarily to drop people off or where people boarded), there's a car stopping at the side and apparently this car is blocking the bus' lane so... this bus driver used her whole life to honk at that young man. And, obviously, young man, I wouldnt say ALL, but many of them are aggressive, energetic, revitalised right? This guy, drove off unhappily pointing the fricking right hand middle finger at the driver. For a moment, I even thought/worried that this crazy young man might suddenly jerk infront of the bus causing this bus' passengers and driver to fall over. But, no, hahah thinking too much. Okay, back to the pointing middle finger. DAMN IDIOT. I HATE ROAD BLOCKS WHEN IM LATE. But luckily, I wasnt late that day. The point is, this stupid car did wrong and yet point middle finger at the female driver?! How audacity! Imagine the passengers are ALL super bosong at the young man driver, Im so sure that everyone will treat him a middle finger plus a free gift WTF back in his face. what the hell seriously. Cant stand people who act like nothing has happened or WORSE act as if they are the king when they did wrong! moronic fella. gross off.

Want to go bangkok. But... its affected by the flood. Monsoon season eh? :( maybe... May next year :) after my exams! so, right, back to TV! hahhahha

When the whole idea of slim is twisted. People of size 1 or 2 thinking that they are fat and wants to go on diet. But again, "How skinny do you want to be/achieve?" Size 0? Thats bamboo. As much as I thought having a proportionate body figure is awesome, Size 0 would be better. Sub-conciously that is. And the culprit? thanks to media. thanks to whoever that started out the Size 0 trend. Just that I thought a while ago, hmm maybe I should stop saying that Im fat. Its true that I maybe flabby at some areas but definitely not FAT. Just some untone pieces of meat. Perhaps, we should also thank friends who are constantly in a competition of getting slim. like what the hell. giving peer pressure and boosting the trend of getting skinny. Im not gonna get involved. Its childish in a way when you step back to look at this whole issue. "What? getting slim? arent your figure good enough? no? what you want? Size 0?" Then, dont the African kids look good? rubbish seriously. And, perhaps, sometimes I act like one big baddie friend by initiating this. hah. Talking bout myself yea?

Harmony and love

Back from a long hiatus. A lot of things happened during this period. Some good and some not so good. Lemme collate my thoughts...

So, first up, school's started a month for me. Can finally feel that things are getting a little out of hand. Haha but I dont mean that I want things to get out of control. Just meant that, I kinda expected that subjects will get more difficult as time passes by. Learning more new things and still, Im not using my brains. But well, this is the learning journey right? Remembered during Year 1 I also did feel this way. So, a pat on my shoulder and "move on Elaine!"

Chingay's on track already. Second chingay training tomorrow. Still in the midst of building rapport. Went for Media Brief at PA. Was on the news :) Media Brief definitely has strengthen the bonds between the trainers and our comrades :) and its fun! we saw Mr Yammy! And he's such cutie pieee!!! The way he danced... is... so... epic, old school and ke ai! And so, media brief actual and rehearsal made us all damn wet. No other performances are as wet as ours. Wet from head to toes, from inside out. Owned.

Sensei video yesterday was really very encouraging and inspiring. Then I thought, "aiya wasted didnt ask Geraldine to watch together." Inspired by the junior choir, though they are not professional choir singers and THEY ARE YOUNG LIKE 7 YEARS OLD? their spirit and enthusiam is there! TOTALLY THERE! After watching that, deep down in my heart I thought, even the young kids behave like that, whats more young adults like us. We should learn from them. (90 degrees bow) They sang Ha-Ha (mother), and one very hip song. All of cuteee! omgah i cant take it :/ And then, testimonials by YWD and YMD from Argentina and Taiwan respectively. Their testimonials are reaffirming, revitalising and not to mention, inspiring too! Too rush down from work aint a wrong choice. Made the rushing all worthwhile :) Cos' its the heart that matters. Then, here comes the Sensei's words of encouragement. He never fails to lighten and brighten up the day by his random yet heart-warming questions. Even if I were to forget everything mentioned in the video, all I know was I was really inspired by them, their spirit, their efforts their determination to always return back to M&D spirit and basing on the Mystic Law. Very touched indeed... The people behave like what philosophy they learnt. Study the world foremost philosophy. You should know we humans shouldnt behave the way many are right now. Precisely that, we should not let our mentor down, and continue to strive on for the happiness of oneself and others! Harmony! :)

We should all be humble. Even if you guys are not, I must be humble.

My gastric pain from yesterday till now. So I shouted, "ma! help me get some milk!" She's like "HUH! WHAT!(did I hear wrongly)" cos... I dont drink milk. never. even if she asks me to, I wont. So.. yea. hahahhah :P

Friends

Friends are important, influential. However, not so in all cases. Was actually cracking my brain thinking what are friends, what are friends for. One thing I concluded was, Friends are for making use of each other. Right? You make use of your friends when you needed something from them, could be, printing notes, copying notes you missed out, their hugs when you needed one, their care and concern when you are down. And yet, not exactly making use, because they make use of you, you make use of them would be called as Helping Each Other. haha So, friends help each other. Its a kinda unspoken relationship that is, when you help that person you dont expect the person to help you back, but the person will just help you when you needed it. Of course, I have friends who totally relied on me, which I dont really like. Though Sociology great man once teaches to make other rely on you and yourself being less dependent on others, this is true for organisational theories, not individuals as a human. Friends are influential if the person's mindset is not stable, unsure and undetermined of what he himself is doing. Kind of sad that I have being living in others life. Not the kind that I have no purpose in life. But, I might not be behaving like what I should behave. And how am I supposed to behave? I can clearly say that no one knows the answer to that. Just dont settle and keep moving on. Find your true self. Its versatile, not fixed like how personality changes so do people. So, coming back to think, Im me even though I think I might not have behave like myself. This 'unique' and criss-crossed thinking is uniquely me.

Quoting to the friends issue. Yes I do have friends issue. Im only close to a few people. And just merely friends with some. Maybe some friendships are in between the closest and mere, just like a few. I dont know if they will reciprocate, but whatever, Ive learned through the hard way, to treat people with sincerity. Sensei has taught us, just like how parents told their kids that what is good and whats not. Kids just dont learn till they learn it the hard way.I do regret and reflect. Thats only when things seems to reach its dead end or... when things turned out really bad. Just hope I will be able to change the things around for good :) all the best to me? 

Things that saddened me a lot is, when you are not making use of your friends, or rather you are letting them suck you dry and they turn around to accuse you are the one sucking them dry. For example, friend A and B do not know each other, only through me that they got together really well. I think. Then, when the time arrive that I am meeting friend A, contacting her via smses. She did not reply. Then, when I reach the place and book seats already to realise that friend A and B are together and have gotten their own seats at the other side. And Im alone. Thanks really. So, look, Ive booked the seats and so called asked her out in advance. Guess, this is how I treated my friends previously thats why they treated me this way? Im a bad friend then. And another case somewhat similar, I booked seats for people and Im not supposed to. Smsed the person. The person MIA like how Friend A did. And at that moment, I knew that history gonna repeat. Im gonna sit alone again. I could have shift my seats to their place but no because I thought if this is the way how we treat each other then, there is no need for us to get together, we might be sitting close but our hearts are not. We are distance apart. Utterly disappointed by them and much so, by myself. 

To you, What are friends?

welcome to the white parade

the above title doesnt make any sense. hahha just like how it reflects the owner's of this blog- senseless.

Right, school's been okay for me so far and we are already in the second week of schooling! Still accumulating loads of questions throughout the whole week. Cos 1 lesson per week. And am gonna spam teachers with the various questions I have. hehehheheh

Yesterday was my Chengsan gathering. Pretty fun and enjoyable. Get to know more awesome people and kids. And, the games section that me and my friends were in charged of turned out rather great, better than I thought. opps. So... when I was on my way to the gathering place, on train, I had some weird, awkward, worst mrt encounter/experience. really. FIRST TIME. feeling, "shit, someone save me, i wanna get off this train already!!" yea, that kind. And plus, that time, I was having a high tide. what the hell.

By the way, I beginning to get irritated by Singapore's service e.g. Bus, Train, Postal. I guess you guys need not me to further elaborate on the Bus and Train cos those living in Singapore/you who live in Singapore might have already experience those, just to name a few, faulty train, irregular arrival timings of buses, wrong deduction of the transport fares, and with the ever increasing FTs or rather foreigners the transports are getting squeezier. And no, Im not complaining bout the incoming foreigners. The topic's still staying on track regarding the services in Singapore. Postal. Somewhat not experienced widely by the people unless you need to mail things frequently. And so, it happened that Im dumb enough to mail my registration fees via snail mail. Not exactly snail mail, cos Ive registered for Registered Mail like duh right? Cos there's important stuff in it. So, it provides me with the tracking function. Then, it took forever to reach UK, thats after a week. And its okay, cos I understand that it has go through packaging with other mails, then to travel a long distance, then break down into different regions i.e. the Post Office. But here comes the problem! I "gave" them a 2 weeks grace period to send the stuff to the place! 2 weeks hello? its like in singapore, you snail mail a package to your friend it'll take around 3-5 working days right? at most 5 days. Yes, I know, UK is wayyy larger, I believe in a larger state, they would have more post offices, more workers, more efficient right! Till now, the fuss I have is with UK, not singapore, thats what many of you who are still blur blur following my entry thought about, yes? Because of this waiting period that I cant take it anymore that I barged into the post office I frequent to enquire on the things. This worker said that he'll help me file an enquiry over to the UK side. I guess what he meant was, file an enquiry to ask the Singapore Post to help me ask the UK side. And I asked how long would it take for them to get back to me, 1 weeks- 2 weeks he said. "Oright, needa wait again," I thought. But who knows, the customer service got back to me within 3 days! or rather, 1 day only. Was so happy, then the person said, somewhat like this enquiry service only helps to track the mail in SINGAPORE, once it goes overseas, I have to PERSONALLY ASK THE OVERSEAS RESPECTIVE POST OFFICE FOR ENQUIRY. LIKE WHAT THE HELL. I paid for the registered mail, hoping they will get my mail SAFELY to the destination, london to be exact. Then, it is what happened?! Long delay that I dont even know if my mail is lost or delayed. and obviously, when I barged into the post office to ask about the status of my mail, I know my mail has reached UK, but its 2 weeks in UK already, I NEED TO KNOW WHERE THE HELL MY MAIL HAS GONE TO. Still on its way to london? or lost?

I dont pay this much to receive this kinda service. This worker obviously does not know what I want. And in the mail, the personnel did not provide me with any methods to contact the Royal Mail. So what now? I have tried checking ways to contact, but no, I have to call. Then, Ill need to pay additional for the overseas calling. like wtf right? IF ONLY I KNEW IT EARLIER, AND IF I WERE MORE DECISIVE I WONT HAVE TO DO THAT BANK DRAFT AND WASTED 10BUCKS, I WOULDNT HAVE SEND REGISTERED MAIL OVERSEAS NEITHER DID I KNOW IT WILL TAKE THIS 3 WEEKS LONG AND WASTED $3.30. Ending up, I might have to pay even more for the follow up. what the hell what the hell.

day 30- your highs and lows of this month

high n lows:
-its 2 days after i turned 20. well, the dreaded big TWO.
-lesser guitar assignments
-stabilizing tuition career
-school started

my highs n lows are pretty much mixed together like rojak :)

life's simple pleasures

School has started for me. And tmr will be my day 2 in school for lesson. First day of school was fine, except the fact that it rained heavily early in the morning and sustained till even after we were released from class. Apparently, the rain rained like forever. Good enough, its not raining today so... today is a sunny happy day without anything on! I had POA on the first day, and I liked the lecturer, she'd made her lesson seem fun and insightful. To learn this subject not because its a pre-requisite in academics but as a knowledge of use in the future. This moral of the story that I got was the trigger point to many who have realised that a seeking mind is what important. Anyway, tmr's Managerial Econs lets hope it will be good :)

This week was fulfilling, glad, little sad and uhm, revitalize feeling for me. Because, Ive only just started school so I felt revitalize. Just like how my cells and brains will be influenced by books, knowledge again. Glad and sad because many guitar assignments are coming to a halt. And lesser income into my pocket. At this phase, Im going to learn to once again juggle with new things on hand that is, my school work, tuition and meetings and chingay. Ive said this a lot of times hahahha pardon me for being so... repetitive.

A few great achievements lately, oh well at least to me it really seemed to be great, students improved by 1 grade in Science. And, one math student scoring full marks! Sometimes, in the midst of teaching all these students I wonder what is their mindset in having a tuition. Their parents too, why do they want their kids to go for tuition. One simple answer, to improve. To improve is good, but whats the ultimate reason behind wanting their kid/themselves to improve? To compare with peers? To compare with fellow kiasu parents? Or do they really understand whats the purpose of education and whats the purpose of an exam? I said this, not because I think I fully comprehend the deeper meaning to the purposes of both. This serves as one reflecting point, to see if you are heading the wrong path (to being competitive etc), if you are beginning to have a warped mindset/idea on education.

Just a side note, sometimes i really do not understand my laptop for the weird behaviour, just like how i dont understand myself either. beforew i typed this particular paragraph my laptop suffered from a crash. and thank goodness for the google chrome, it actually kept my entry intact! and no, i didnt saved my entry nor did i published it yet. i thought i would have to retype the above long passages! so... banzai to google chrome! you're serving me great!

Hello Back

Been missing in action lately. Just couldnt find a good time to sit down, relax, drink kopi and type my post in a calm manner till today. And yes, to top it off, its raining outside. Kinda scenic? Like those we saw on TV commercials. lol much.
Waiting for my guide books to arrive but to no avail. Seems like its not gonna be arriving any sooner. Or perhaps the UK side has to receive my payment before sending their courier service to my side :( So... go postmen go! Go deliver fast! Or mehz, maybe I should have sent it off earlier? Or I should have sent it via FEDEX! HAHAHA cos' They live to deliver.
Anyway, its a few days to school reopens for me. For some universities, they are already starting to have their recess week or your so called exam break. and yea, thats just the start of schooling for me. Happy, sad I dont know. Gonna be humble and start working triple hard as Ill be juggling between school, work and gakkai activities and chingay! Ill make sure my quit in Council be worthwhile! And, I foresee that my choice is the most right.
My hands are in an unstable state especially my left hand... :( its weak... Ought to do some hands exercise like clutching fists.
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planning to have 21st birthday party? yes? like a reminder that Ive grown up. wth

I seriously think, people who are pissed off cant think proper. Means, they are not using their brains already. they've lost it.

Day 29- Goals for the next 30days

Ah great this goals thing come in promptly.
1. Settle my school fees.
2. Start on POA with sissy(sissy aint sissy. sissy is tomboy. the irony? lol) already
3. Perhaps, start on grade 2, 3 guitar?
4. Settle my tuition stuff

ALOTOFTHINGSAH

Day 28- Something that you miss

Everything.

Im missing out in a lot of things everyday, every seconds, every moment.

Day 27- A problem that you have had.

None. Okay, I cant think of any right now. Hmm perhaps, my school continuing registration fees? The instructions werent given. No instructions at all. So means if my friend did not inform me, I wont get to know of this. great

Day 26- What kind of person attracts you

In a good or bad way?

In a bad way:
By wearing eye-catching atttire like lime green/red i dont know. By... digging your nose, scratching your butt lol I guess those actions will irl people off right? By not wearing your clothes properly? By wearing chest-droppy top or butt-cellulite-showing shorts. Ill just get disgusted and turned off. But, I suppose if ladies were to wear those, the guys will prolly be enjoying much. right guys? And sums in all, uncivilised person in the public attracts my attention. only. yes.

In a good way:
Girls: err..... yes, girls attracts my attention. To put it specifically, pretty girls and girls who are fashionably dressed. CANT TAKE MY EYES OFF THEM. Sorry, but Im straight. as straight as a ruler?

Guys: Cute and handsome guys. and extraordinary man. LOL c'mon la, the first impression counts right? and who doesnt like cutie pies? All in all, just dont have to be toooooo cmi should be fine.

sianz1/2
Yours truly seriously detest people who always wait. Not saying people who wait on us. (If you get what I mean, People who wait on us, are waiter/sales assistants. its English.) waiting for the sky to fall down really. Cant stand them. Especially those who claim that they are waiting for others to take action when they are NOT DOING IT! Isnt that kinda absurd? I supposed, just type on either email or message us wont take up most of your time right?
And yes, when it comes to planning a meeting/outing those who take action is the one being labelled as the organiser. funny so. Hence, the follow up actions like coming up with an ideal date and time is... brain draining. Imagine you had to coordinate all the timings and the preferences and venue of all people involved! Person A wants this and is available during these days. However, person B wants the other. Look, this is just a short and simple comparison/analyse between 2 persons ONLY. In the actual fact, we sometimes had to plan an outing/meeting for a group of say... 5-20? or even more? Facebooking events are good. But, it wont work to its fullest if the people aint active in it. Hard uh? I guess, thats the reason why many detest being the one who plan/initiates/take action.

Aside that, should I sign up for Summer Programme next year? That would mean... going to London for 3weeks. nearly 1 month. Yes, no? This is definitely a good chance for me to get exposed to overseas stuffs, and get independent!

Think, Im gonna stop his tuition. 2weeks later. hmm

A fulfilling day

Yesterday was a mixed feeling day. Kicked off my day with eCr and its literally yea, kicked off and got pissed off. Just for your information, eCr is one period where SIM UOL students select their units/modules and timetable and lecturers. Although there's a system that allows a particular batch of students to do their eCr at a different timing, the system is rather lag. Sorry correction, VERY LAG. And I would say this arrangement of batches/courses students to select at different timing/days is... unfair. Cos the first batch will be able to choose the good lecturers and good timings whereas the last will be put at the very disadvantage. agree? But as of now, even I cant think of any better arrangements to suggest the 'banned' of such practice. And yes, lag, 30mins timeout session and apparently many are experiencing the timeout session at only say 5mins? All the hopeful souls were just praying/cursin/hoping/swearing for the system to work, to load, to proceed to 'Save and Continue' but its only 1.5hrs after the start of the session that we got our timetable. What an excited moment huh? Thought I was bad enough? No. There are people in much deeper shit that I do. My friend waited to 2hrs, some 6hours, some even had to call the School Helpdesk to enquire. I guess, the school admin had a tough day yesterday and it gonna last for at least a week? For there are different batches and courses students. haahha. All thanks to the lousy system. And yea, my school aint the worse, NUS' bidding system via luck and credit is worse I would say. very mmuch pissed off yea. that sums up my morning.

(Edit: My mood got lifted up now, 7/9/2011, lol. Cos Im finally able to choose good lecturers!)

And, so I brought my family to swensens to have our lunch using the Groupon :) All in all, I just paid 7bucks at the restaurant and had 47dollars worth of 3 main courses :) envy? I tell you, there's no need to envy. The price is so UP there, I could just get it at a cheaper rate elsewhere. Ambience aint good, it was crowded and many were walking about. Unlike those hotel restaurants or sea view side restaurants. But the good that we ordered are pretty... healthy. haha so thats good?

Next, proceed on by I went out to meet gladys and soomin. I was late, as usual. heh :P Went Teoheng the first time lol. And the shopping mall looks run down. VERY. Our room that I booked, was small to #$^#!^!&^ THE SMALLEST SMALL I EVER GET EVER SINCE I STARTED GOING SING K WITH MY FRIENDS. THATS EVEN SMALLER THAN MY STOREROOM/TOILET! grah!

Heres a photo of this pretty girl :P

Day 25- Someone who fascinates you and why

Uhm. No one fascinates me except myself.

Day 24- your favorite movie and what its about

Harry Potter.

Magical, Romance, Fights, Fantasy, Friends. C'mon who doesnt know Harry Potter? haha. Its about that boy who was wounded by the You Know Who with the Lightning scar on his forehead supporting the PAP (this part is an extra hahahha) brave his way through many obstacles into the Magical World via Train Platform 3 3/4's wall. Yes, he crashes into the wall to get to the another realm. He met his truest friends and a few more new friends. Namely, Ron and Hermione. You Know Who detests his mum who spike his mudblood daddy's drink such that he fell in love with the witch, but left her cos the drug wears off after a few years when You Know Who was born. And for some You Know What reason he has to kill mudblood baby boy; Harry Potter is the chosen one. So, at the last sequel, that shows the final showdown between Harry and Lord Voldermort. Kinda swift and short showdown though. Last scene was the good beaten the bad and the good live happily ever after with their partners and children. yea, watch the 8 series to find out more! THATS A 100% AWESOME GUARANTEED MOVIE IN ONE'S LIFETIME! WATCHIT! You'll love it! :)

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I think my slimming mission is somewhat getting better. Im getting slimmer and slimmer day by day. lol. Thats so... unbelievable that this actually works! Tried it on myself taking me as a guinea pig before Im gonna work on my sister and mumsie... :) Thats the good thing with knowing what you are eating and what you need. :) great!

Day 23- Give pictures of 5guys who are famous whom you find attractive

Hmm. Famous Amos. Thats one. ahahha kidding! Okay, here's the list and by no means of order... First up!

Barack Obama. Hansum sia Probably the most handsome in the circle of politics. Thumbs up yea!

Show Luo Zhi Xiang. Little Pig!! Humourous kinda guy. hohohooho

Nickhun! Cute right! HAHHA Didnt know Ive copied a GIF format! hahahha his wink!!! ahhhh melts* Have you melted?

Edison Chen. And yes, despite his scandals, he's still no doubt the better looking ones.

LEE MIN HO! Oh yes, is he getting married or has he just got attached recently? heh I dont really chase after celebrities... Anyway, hellyeah, admit that you think he's handsome piece of jade

Urgh this is so difficult! And I didnt expect choosing these good looking guys can be such a chore! Perhaps, Ill do much much better if I were to copy and paste 5 attractive and famous ladies. I could even do up till a 100? hah. Thats why, I look/stare/glare at pretty girls. hehhehheh Some weird habit of mine? 

xoxo!

Day 22- How have you changed in the past 2 years?

2 years ago I was preparing to mug damn hard for A levels! Uhm, glad that Ive morphed into someone who's intelligent, hardworking, mature, responsible, sarcastic, lazier, more dependent and independent in some ways. Yup, thats about it. Sometimes, circumstances call for a change. We just have to.

Day 21- One of your favourite shows

Wha thats quite a lot.

As of 2011, 

Chinese local drama: On the Fringe 2, Little Nyonya, C.L.I.F., all recent shows by Rui En and Jeanette Aw haha

Taiwan drama: Fated to love you (definitely the best)

Hong Kong drama: No specific ones but I like those police or comedy dramas by Shermaine Sheh and Guo Jin An

Variety Shows: GUESS GUESS GUESS! Thats the best ever! By Jacky Wu! :D

Movie: Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows! 

Day 20- How important you think Education is

VERY.

Education starts from foetus teaching to childcare education, preschool, primary, secondary, higher secondary, tertiary to society education. Education is everywhere and it is somehow a complementary with our surroundings. Education moulds the child. Especially, the character, moral teaching. Therefore, I think there should be teachers specialising in educating CME (Civics Moral Education) and CME is a must conduct lesson in School instead of asking the form teacher/civics tutor to 'teach' that. They cant. Everyone has their own forte and they are doing it already! i.e. a Math teacher is a form teacher of a certain class. And usuallly, in this case, for teachers who are super nice and empathetic to their students, they will use the CME class to conduct their subject lessons during critical periods like Olevels, Alevels or PSLE. (Unless their form teacher doesnt teach them the generic subject la) So yea, Moral and Academics education are equally important but I do think a person with high EQ and AQ survives longer than people with only high IQ, cos they only know how to nicely beat around the bush via extraordinary IQ.

Whatever it is. This post came in good time today! cos... its TEACHERS' DAY TODAY!

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

I think teachers who genuinely want to improve their students are angels! Really, from the deepest of my heart, I do respect them a lot. Thats why, when I did something that I wouldnt think I will do, I feel guilty even until now that I shouldnt have did that. And... you will really feel your teachers if you are one. As mentioned always, Im in the educational sector right now since 1+ years ago? Trust your teachers I can guarantee majority of them treat you students like their child and want you guys/girls to hit the top sector in life i.e. be a good person contributing back to the society. (And... moral education comes into place! haha right??) The adverts produced by MOE seemingly trying to promote teacher as a career. Yes, it is. But, its not glorifying the life of a teacher I must say. Do you not agree that there are such teachers?

(Im damn pissed off now. Thanks to blogger and my fricking auto restart laptop. my orignal posts from here on is LOST!)

Im gonna write vaguely now on. Had written a testimonial like to all the teachers but laptop shuts it off. so.. here it goes... Starting from Primary School till now:

Ms Teo, my 3 years form teacher. The good 3 years dont come by easy, the students had to fight for it. She's really a very nice teacher. And, thanks to her my English improved by abit. At least I got a clearer idea of the tenses concept. And thanks for letting me type on a Computer's keyboard when my Invention idea got accepted for the preliminary round! (Yes, Im creative! okay!) hahah remembered how envy I was when Miss Teo typed. Its so fast! And I thought she had a magical hands and how I wished I could type that fast without looking at the keyboard. HAHHA to think. Now, I COULD DO THIS AS WELL! (Trying to type without looking. ahhahahahhah)
Ms Ong, short, PMS, math teacher. She got me being competitive in Math.
Chen Lao Shi who encouraged us to purchase the then Dou Hao primary chinese newspapers to improve my Chinese. Yes, my chinese sucked. 

Mr Bala, for coaching us Math. He's really good and I could really adapt to (new) teachers despite that heavy Indian plus Moustache accent. hehe It wouldnt have been easy on him as well as Ms Agnes Ho, physics teacher, who are both teachers I usually bombard questions with... Thanks for their patience with me. And those subjects Ive improved drastically and high life passion still in it!
Ms Ang, Ms Literature(Ive forgotten her name :/), Ms Dawn Chin, Ms Cho. Thanks for being so never dying determination in rescuing my English! Never easy too especially on language subjects. Thanks to Miss Literature that I loved Literature, and even wanted to opt for Lit during Sec3 streaming cos I got an A grade in it despite my lousy English. hah the irony.
Thanks to my dance teacher in charge plus Chinese teacher! Mdm Yick! Thanks for going that extra-mile in taking care of all the dancers i.e. forking our own money to ask us down to Alumni Dinner, to pass me the make up set at my house, to make mango pudding for us (Yes, I remembered that! Cos it tasted nice. It was superbly done!) Thanks to Ms Tan Bao Jun who taught me Chinese as well, your class is also fun-filled and you are just too cute. HAHHA yea, even until now.

Mr kwek! the funny humourous math teacher! I still can remember how he turns his back to write on the flash screen during lecture. like a funny only. HAHHA Mrs Sim, the strict, understanding and reasonable economics teacher! I miss your shoutings! :( Miss Low, the unique cool pretty physics teacher ever or probably the coolest teacher I ever met. Not lying. Thank you guys for letting me consult you so so so many times! And thanks for pushing us on this journey! Thank you for not giving either of us up!

Thanks to all my GP teachers, I know, its never easy teaching me, especially, GP. Thank you to Ms Kathleen, Ms R, Mr Edson Ng! Thank you to the latter for letting me know the seriousness of the whole situation and how extreme bad my GP was. I mean, I know I sucked at it, but in the actualy fact there's this possibility that I could retain thanks to GP, I could have to retake, I could have flunk badly in it. No matter if thats a scare, or really what you think, thank you. (To fight on even stronger when adversities arise) Thanks to SRJC's PE TEACHERS! thanks for letting me accomplish the mission Id never ever thought I could do it! Really. (tearing) hahha I hated running since sec3 on. I would never run longer than 2.4km cos I thought 2.4 is already very bad. Before that I used to run 5km. Guess what, I was trained to run 10km! oh frick. Then, actual fact, I ran 12km in the event; Will Run. 2 EXTRA KMs! Thats something I never thought of. Thank you for making the impossible possible. (Its the determination, and effort put in to accomplish the mission impossible thank yourself and the teachers!)
ah yes! MR ANG! THE CHEMISTRY TEACHER THAT MADE ME LOVE CHEMISTRY! HAHAHA The funny teacher. I was all so bad in it ever since Sec3. F9 all the way even until J1, Chemistry is only a just pass.

Thanks to Mr Eng and Mr Choo for coaching us Guitar! Its definitely a good musical skill to learn and master! :D

Thanks to Ikeda Sensei who taught many of us the way to live, to study! Studying the world's foremost philosophy.

Thanks all my university lecturers! Mr Nageb, Mr Adrian Tang, Ms Lee CC, Mr Syed the loss voice joke humourous singer math lecturer! 

TEACHERS'! YOU GUYS ROCK ON! LOVIN ALL OF YOU! THANKS FOR MOULDING US ALL AS INDIVIDUALS WITH GOOD CHARACTER AND ACCOMPLISHED ACADEMICS!

Day 19- Disrespecting your Parents

Making fun of them. Slapping their face lightly thinking that its fun and joke even though you meant no harm. Feeling inferior/embarrassed in school when your parents go to your school. Having the mindset of throwing them out of house. Retorting back when punished. Thinking that they are such a chore especially when they begin to get older and memory lost. Thinking that they are so troublesome. They are so naggy how I wish to shut them off. Thought of running away from home. Not studying hard. Wounding yourself, not taking care of the body they gave you. Committing Suicide for love?!?!. NOT LISTENING TO THEM (I mean, listen to the correct things. Please be able to discern between the wrong and right). etc

As long as you are not loving them like you ought to, you are disrespecting the ones who gave birth to you. And, you are selfish. No matter how they treat you, you cannot change the fact that you are their child. Please please please love them like how they took care of you when you were born, how they paid extra care to the fragile foetus in the mummy's womb. Have that sense of gratitude for your parents before its all too late...

Love.

Happy Birthday to myself

Stayed out yesterday and had a blast. And I really mean a BLAST. Cos my family went to Cineleisure to attend the On The Fringe Fan Meet (teen casts), the crowd was massive and so chaotic to the extent that they had to cancel it due to artistes safety purposes. :/ Nonetheless, Ive took a few videos of them and caught a few glimpses of all the casts. Didnt get too near like those little kiddos though. Oh yes! And given my age, I think, Im the few old ones over there other than the shop owners, the guards, Pat Mok, my aunt n my mum and... Ian Fang (yes, he's older than me) The rest? Confirm plus chop young kids ranging from my youngest cousin 5 to say... 18? Squeezed into the crowd just to take the videos yesterday and was squashed eventually. And literally, kenna buried by people around me lol Had no choice and feeling arm and neck aching that I had to retreat!

Ian Fang aka Jason Liu

From left to right:

Kimberly Chia aka Ah Ya and Elizabeth Lee aka Joey

From left to right:

Patricia Mok (Mediacorp artiste to control the crowd) and Edwin Goh aka Zhi Yong

From left to right:

Yi Da aka Tomato (fricking cute right! hahha) and Gabriel aka Ah Dong (paiseh! kenna blocked)

Then, had dinner at 313.

Afterwhich, meet jiayin n girls!

Thats a Cuppucino that made my stomach went mad.

Multiple 16shots! taken by laoyin

laoyin and myself! You know my photog skills sucks like one king.

And... Im secretly hoping something. hehehehheheheh done my research! Im way too short la. :( Any ways to grow taller???

Oh yea, no Zoo today :/ Jolin is using the same waterbottle as my family! HAHAHHAHA found it randomly on her Fanclub's weibo. real awesome! and yes, I HAVE GOTTEN HER BOOK! :))) HAPPY LIKE A KID

Great Monday

Unbelievable sights, Indescribable feeling.

Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling through an endless diamond sky.

A whole new world with you...

-Disney

Out to town later! Meeting up with my aunt and a family outing! Catching the kids in On the Fringe. And... I expect that there will whole loads of humans over there. haa? Hate crowds. Really. ah whatever, im gonna make sure that i work hard in taking photos. pretty photos that is. Im seriously in need of someone to teach me how to fricking snap nice pictures!

Tell me, why pianos are so costly?! Intending to get a second hand electric piano, not those upright pianos. And then... Ill try to practise on it now that I can read the notes and understood the musical terms. I play the classical guitar by the way. Gonna attempt grade 3-5 real soon! prolly after these few days of... CELEBRATION! celebrate my birthday, results and... HARI RAYA! LOL (Im not malay.)

Okay, so... yup! most likely gettin my book later on in Orchard, and will see if time allows me to go roaming around the streets and hit the shops. And then, meetup with my favorite girls! :D heeeee

What to say? I cant really say Miley Cyrus doesnt know how to sing. At least her voice is kinda... unique? hhaha And if you're saying singing and refering to Beyonce or Charice. Then I tell you, your definition of singing is toooooo high-notch. Many current mandopop singers cant reach that expectation of yours. So... lets be objective!

Day 18- your beliefs

Nothing is impossible. If only you believe.

Some may see how I view life as being optimistic but, I think my view goes beyond being plainly optimistic. It is the courage to face all obstacles. Being optimistic could be escaping from the reality and still being happy-go-lucky. I will definitely be upsetted by the problems depending which type, but my determination and courage keep me going. I will face the problems and make full use of it and change it from a bad situation to a good one! Nothing is ever deadlocked. And i believe, all things that happened, happens for a reason. Sometimes, I may seen to be too paranoid or think too much. Its true! I go beyond surface. But not to the extent of being unreasonable.

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Choosing units are such a chore! Dilemma!

black colour eyeliner with long walking stick

I guess sooner or later, I have to reformat my whole laptop :( Thinking of the first day when we welcome it to our house, I was so careful of it. Till today. Drastic Change. I said not to download nonsense, true I didnt download nonsense, but there are times when I download movies/software then uninstall again lol. Need to clear the files already. :(

Dear Laptop,

You have served me well. Thank you. Love.

Regards,

your notorious owner

Just logged into my previous wordpress blog and was surprised by the number of viewers. like a few times higher than this space? And, what I wanted to say is, thank you guys. For your support despite me not posting any updates on it ever since 3months ago. Its really coolzxz to read up past posts. How extreme I used to be, how stupid, how dreamy how it all changes/changed. meh alrightaye! WORKINGGGG

Will not be getting that oven. Cos my current small little oven is good enough! :) Urge to buy durian puffs/crepe and uhm MAGNUM ICECREAM LATER! after work la

PS: dont ask me whats up with that title. lol Im just too random. Ideas from 'If I had you' by Mr Lambert.

BLOGGER IS MAD I CANT PUBLISH MY POST!!!!!!!!!

Day 17- Your highs and lows of the past year

Im free. Im freed.

And that would be from 28 Aug 2010 till today, exactly 1year.

High:

1. Getting not bad results in Uni.

2. Did a few baking projects

3. Finally working. lol. And earning considerably good hourly pay, i.e. Tuition.

4. Can feel my good fortune workin!

5. Joined Council and got to know awesome people and had a few great moments together.

6. got accepted into Council.

Low:

1. Kinda lost count of the timings and dates, yog ended.

2. Just started school in SIM since 25 Aug. lol And no friends I know. (But you know, Im elaine, so... I got to know new pengyou! lol pretty fast)

Not much of the lows though, cos Im happy Elaine. HAHHA

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Working later on! So yeap! Not going to gimme good time to think about nonsense. Just focus on doing good can already! And, Im not gonna stalk :P ahha yes, I stalked. bewareeeeee

xoxo

Lovable Sister

My sister is super cute.

My dad came home after voting for the Tan President.

Sister: dad! who did you vote for?

mum: you guess!

sister: hmm same as you?

mum: no la. another one.

sister: ahh ok... good good as long as its not the one who proposed girls should go NS.

Cos, she's studying in Poly right now. And, if the president is elected and proposal is approved, my sister's graduating year is just right/in time to register into tekong. HAHAHHAHAH LAUGH AT HER.

Day 16- Your views on Mainstream Music

Refer to this

Good to a certain extent. Like I said media is somehow bias even music. The way things are propagated e.g. National Day theme songs they propagate the patriotism in all citizens. Therefore, mainstream music consist of songs that are widely accepted by the people. Opposing subcultures music.

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Doing 2 challenges per day. Cos its getting nowhere?

Day 15- your favorite Tumblrs

I dont have any favorite tumblrs. I just happen to tumble upon tumblrs! hahah to kope pretty pictures :P

Day 14- Your earliest memory

When I stayed at my Granny's House, sleeping in the cot. lol Building good relationship with my dearest uncle plus godfather, my granny and my great granny. :( I miss my granny and great granny. miss them a lot a lot.

When in Childcare, yes I was sent to childcare, kena totured by the Principal. I will remember this for life unless I lost my mind or lost my memory. She is a skinny and tall lady. She is already quite haggy and shag and old when I had memory of her. She called me into her office, that is dark and a ceiling fan turning at a slow pace (those scary/horror movie). And, for some reason she claimed to cut off my ears using a scissors and she flashed the scissors infront of me. Thank you very much, I was still 2 years old then. Thanks for this 'great' memory. So... In any occassion when I had to pass by that childcare centre I hated that childcare smell. That smell's supposed to belong to those cute little innocent babies, pure smell, but thanks to this woman that this smells SUCKS. Overall, I really detest that centre. If I were to have any children, I WONT SEND THEM TO CHILDCARE CENTRE. Caring principal and teachers are bullsh*t. Their way of publicity to attract more goondus.

I love the way my dad piggyback me whenever I fell asleep in his car. HAHAHHA ever since, I love sleeping in his car, cos Ill not need to walk from carpark to home in that case! hahahh only until I grew older and heavier that my parents cant carry me anymore. hehehhehehe fatty bombom.

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Im not gonna change for the sake of others. No one can ask me to change, including you. Ill change in my own accord. powderful me. Mighty and courageous, I am.

xoxo

Tell me

Tell me please, what do you like in a girl/woman?

Looks? Dressing up? Grooming? Make up? Studies? Career? Personality? Mindset? what?

Is it true that if a guy will acceptable all the flaws in a woman if he really likes her?

Myth Busted?

Day 13- Somewhere you would like to move or visit.

Im very satisfied to where Im living in right now. My home in Singapore and Singapore my home. Some critics may say that Singapore really do fairly well in inculcating Singapore Spirit in the students. But only, SOME students, Ill say. Because out there, are many more people who are 'giving' up in Singapore and giving reasons like "not firming its roots in the soil that doesnt want it". Apparently, they are very much affected by the FTs. Not that Im not affected, all of us do. Just that the impact is not great enough now, for me to really feel it.

As told, Ive always wanted to travel. To see things outside the place Im staying in. To find/learn more insights rather than learning it from the media/education (which maybe bias at times). And of course, I enjoy traveling to exotic places. And first of all, I would want to go Japan. For studies. Further studies after my degree/honours in Singapore. But money will be an issue. Crucial, heavy factor. Standard of living in Japan aint low. Its in fact, very high, like up there. This, Ill need to think of it to weigh the pros and cons.

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A side note, yesterday Ive gotten my results. Checking it online after a day's work and after much dilemma as to postponing to check it (but well, have it check it sooner or later and its not like im very free nowadays. so might as well, do it now. once and for all.) results are as of below...

Day 12- Bullet your whole day

Woke up at 6am due to insomnia and work. Got to travel all the way to the west for guitar enrichment, and I have to conduct the lesson today! :/ And insomnia because results releasing soon. Stress stress... And then, after work, camped infront of the lappy at home till now plus watching TV shows. Waiting for results and tuition. Thats about it. scary day. Judgement Day. Oh yes! Was fiddling with Piano in that school just now lol and gotta feeling to get a electric standup piano yamaha :) but thats not going to be cheap.

Day 11- Put your iPod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up

1. I don't love you by MCR

2. Oh by SNSD

3. 如果能在一起 Ru Guo Neng Zai Yi Qi by 梁静如Fish Leong

4. 我爱的人Wo Ai De Ren by 林侑加Yoga Lin

(Used to Favorited this song hahah)

5. 我的依赖Wo De Yi Lai by 蔡依林Jolin

(still loving this song. MV shoots a Wedding scene :) )

6. Destiny by Jim Brickman

(Used to be my top1 and blog song. Super nice! Still recommended!)

7. Long Shot by Kelly Clarkson

(Noose on the neck and someone pulled it tighter.)

8. Nobody by Wondergirls

(For this song to appear in a shuffle list is quite rare I guess? The song that shoots Wondergirls to fame.)

9. Im only me when Im with you by Taylor Swift

10. 传说Chuan Shuo by 刘力杨Jade Liu and 林侑加Yoga Lin

(<3 still very much liking this song!)

Day 10- Discuss you first love and first kiss

I supposed this means the first mutual love? But sadly, I dont have any. Hmm or should I write, luckily instead? heheh Anyway, so first love Im gonna take it as my first puppy love. lol That happened long long long long time ago when Elaine was 5. LOL joking. When Elaine was primary5, she 'fell in love' with a little boy who is super clever (he is still very clever right now), super sporty (indeed very good in badminton) and he was the class-monitor. Aiya, like those perfect 10 boy la. Perhaps, the only flaw is he is not rich but well, I was young to know whats poor or rich and that he is a little girly(I really hope he doesnt know that Im writing bout him). And I CONFESSED! HAHHAHAHAHA omg I didnt imagine how on earth I got this bloody courage to confess! And, as he was rushing home (he is always so in a rush), he didnt reply me... So... I take it as I was rejected :( SAD

Hmm mmm first kiss. With my mum? with my dad? with my siblings? with my girlfriends? Hhahaha I know you people are just being gossipy and kpo right! First kiss... with a guy! haha too bad, none of such thing! :P

And I think first kiss really mean a tonne of value or priceless if you had that with your first love. And that your first love, is still your only love and your current and forever love. Like cliche I know.

Thats quite saddening to see your friend who turns into your partner (i mean, this is kinda sweet at first). Then, you even had that slight moment that he/she could be your life-long partner. And, bad things strike, you guys broke up and went separate ways. But, still having each others' profile in Facebook. Learning each other's present life and how they are doing. Seeing one of which's relationship status changes from single to its complicated to in a relationship with blah blah, and followed by a string of news feed filled up with their <3 Album. Sad right! (haha okay, i think the aftermath feeling depends on how you guys ended it) Then, even awkward! When you are still single, walking along the street and bump into your ex and his/her new partner! sia la. GOOD GAME!

And somehow, Ive got the power! lol. I ever tried this many times and it happened! Like, when Im outside, on a bus or alone or something my mind tend to drift off to somewhere like thinking of someone. Someone could be my friend, girl friend or boy friend, to relatives. Just keep thinking, and I BUMP INTO THEM! LOL THIS IS TRUE. 100% ACCURACY. JUST KEEP THINKING LOL sometimes I feel Im psychic or what.

Day 09- How you hope your future will be like.

hehheh

I hope that I will get to travel a lot. To Africa, Cambodia, India, Taiwan, Korea, UK, Europe like Vernice, Paris, Italy, China fuzhou, Hong Kong hahhahah

I hope that I will get to open to shop ;) keep my fingers crossed. -CONFIDENTIAL-

I hope that I will get the results that I wanted. First Class Honours!

I hope I will be a better friend, a better daughter, a better sister, a better tutor, a better instructor, a better dont-know-what haha

I guess everyone wants good/best things in life, even for those who seemingly have already given up on their life. The first smallest simple step is to dream, to daydream. Then, put it into action! :)

Day 08- A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life

Probably, the first time I went on stage to receive Awards? Probably, the first time I stood up infront of the school/many people taking up a Leadership role? Probably, the first time that my students understood the topic which they were lousy at. Probably the time when I baked a at least edible cake/cookie/muffin. Or/And when my effort is recognised. That will be a 'want' by the way. Cos I think we shouldnt just work hard just to let others see, you are not living for others. Do it for the sake of its worthiness, and its value of doing it. Value does not neccessarily mean money returns per se (Like those working as a tutor/educational sector). It could be the value you learn and instill in others.

On the side note, some of the JJ Lin's songs are really inspirational? Perhaps more of refreshing?

With much love,

xoxo

day 07- your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality

She's darn cute. I cant take it.

western zodiac: Virgo love. yes. Perfectionist. But, Im yet to get there.

chinese zodiac: Goat. uhm, soft? lol

Usually Ill put Virgo under horoscope, but Ive came pass some website that writes 'horoscope' as Zodiac. So yea... Ill put both.

Good day!

xoxo

Day 06- write 30 interesting facts about yourself

hahahahhahaha

1. I used to hate waters. So... I detest swimming. But... I love bathing!
2. I like to sit near the bell in the bus. With the new WAB, I love love love to sit at the 3rd row. :) Cos my legs are short.
3. I like to talk to myself pretending to be two different person.
4. I love the number 4. Because thats my index number ever since primary 1 till secondary 4.
5. I always stand on the left side of the escalator.
6. I only have 1 record of me not sleeping for 2days. And thats during Sec4 O levels mugging period.
7. I can slim and get fat easily.
8. I love August! Cos Im a August baby! And National Day falls on August. So Aug babies have priviledges in this month!
9. I dislike bittergourd. They will NEVER go down my throat.
10. My handwriting sucks. Very.
11. Im viewing the world at the height of 153cm.
12. I have chicken pox like scar on my left hand due to allergy when I was young :(
13. I used to be very gullible, cheated by my friends. Not anymore!
14. I only have ONE best friend in primary school. And, I was possessive then. I didnt like my best friend to talk to others. lol?
15. I bullied my primary 6 buddy when I got enrolled into my primary school. ><
16. Im easily jealous of people flaunting ANYTHING! (when I was in kindergarden) HAHHA Even SBS bus ticket also want.
17. I love crowds when I was young like 2years old. Then, as I grow older, I began to get more closed up in my own world...
18. I am a Nokia owner ever since Sec2 when I owned my very first non-camera Nokia phone. And, Im proud of being loyal to Nokia!
19. I finish the food I bought. Not even tiny bits are left on the plate/wrapper.
20. I have sinus. Whats new?
21. I had asthma. And had asthma attack.
22. I don't believe in God, deities, immortals, ghosts, spirits.
23. I love my life.
24. I secretly wanted to become an actress/singer.
25. My goal in life is to travel to all the places in the world. Especially, Africa.
26. Im an imperfect perfectionist.
27. I cry a lot. I can cry easily. Gimme 3secs. hahah no la, 10secs will do.
28. Im very fickle-minded. I can agree to go out a week ago then last minute cancel/postpone.
29. I can split. Not spit. I cant spit.
30. Somehow Im very organised when my schedule and things on table, but Im very messy with my grooming and my... bag. hahhah