Attitude Problem

A lot of things happened and I totally have to no idea of where to begin with. So, I wrote this random 'opening' to my preceding entry. hmm, start with Chingay shall we?

Just felt that we could have done better. I should have controlled my temper, to embrace, not just to tolerate. Cos' there's limit to a person's tolerance, but its unlimited to embrace. And before today, or rather before that particular training, i was still tolerating. Perhaps, thats why I blew up that day. Problems are that the central command are not giving the trainers enough time to coach/update new changes as and when. Perhaps, the communication part could have done better via good liasing with block in charge. Then again, 8 to 12 groups with only 2 Block ICs is not enough. How do we expect them to run to and fro umpteen times for say 90m at least? They arent track runners yea. So I suggested in a sarcastic plus angsty manner, "perhaps the trainers should just use handphones during training to communication with the block in charge." So block ICs wouldnt have to run so much and, when there are new/LAST MINUTE changes, we can be notified immediately via sms. Maybe this method is a little absurd i.e. not the usual way, but at least this method ensures everyone knowing the changes quick. And i guess, rather obvious, my suggestion wasnt taken into consideration cos' people there, then, thought im just spitting angsty comments. And what was remembered, again I guess, is my hot temper. lol great? This isnt the end to it, problem doesnt just lie with the top management crisis, but also amongst the trainers. and surprisingly, it wasnt the problem with the participants but the trainers and above. what a joke. With trainers i wrote, just meant trainer. ONE. my partner. I would really hope that what I heard was just a hearsay/heard wrongly/interpret wrongly. The info that I got was, "he said, 'you always no voice one leh'." This means, he's always doing the double work; admin and training. Simply said, I AM DOING NOTHING. applause please. who was the one that did the training in PA. who was the one who tried to shout during group training at f1 pit. I was the one who needed all help. clearly, we could have swapped roles, i suggested for that a few times, but he rejected. Now what? Im doing nothing? Right, maybe I shouldnt have exerted so much. Look, I dont expect him/them to appreciate my efforts, but please dont discredit my efforts. Seriously... Im dreading.

Studies, fine with i feel that I could do better than just being fine. FCH!

For the past week, Ive been falling sick even till now. Super upset! Guess what? I have no voice :) great way to end the year yes? :(

Tried baking cupcakes for the first time, and was a success :) good commentaries by friends and neighbours, despite it looking plain. great! and for the first time, i didnt like 30 plus cupcakes at one go. Didnt get to try full cupcakes, just a few bites here and there and ample to make me fall ill :P

writing blog entry is such a chore..