Been awhile

Exams in 17 days and I have been slacking. Felt that I have not been putting in much efforts. Arrogance, it must be.

Anyway, its a matter of time in these few hours that i totally bid goodbye to online world. BUT, i highly doubt so. Cos there are just too much of things for me to settle. District Meeting is down. Now, TG and June Project.  I just couldnt put into my 100% effort in them somehow. And the reason is that, I have not been discipline in my own practice. Okay, so whatever it is. I gonna hit the books real soon, and its gonna be a intensive studying period.

Plans after exams in just less than a month.
- Plan for 21st birthday
- TG
- JUNE PROJECT
- Korean class
- find proper admin work/intern
- shop!!!!!
 roughly thats bout it. Not gonna do it like a crazy blast go pub, club whatsoever nonsense. yes, thats nonsense. I just dont find it make sense to 'chill', 'relax' by drinking, by going places with lots of people dancing, pushing and squeezing. it just makes no sense at all. AT ALL. Firstly, chilling is not my cup of tea. Cos' chilling/drinking to be specific is a want. A want that I totally dont want and dont need. There are much better things that we youths with energy and power can do. Drinking? leave it till its old. Or perhaps, when we are old are still youthful! So, you see, there's totally no need to drink in this lifetime. ahah! Second, even if I want to chill, its only chilling at my own pace. Im a pretty alone person, a nicer word to put forth would be, independent. heh

So yes, thats bout it! Watching The Fierce Wife, a taiwanese drama. And this song is nice :)

Chunks and Pieces

Prelims finally over! In just mere 4 days, which is to mean that 1 paper per day. Very xiong. Others better, theirs is spanned across few weeks, at least they have got more time to prepare and do good for each paper :( while I wasnt given the chance, so I had to study every single day to late and early in the morning before the paper starts. Wasnt very prepared for it, Ill say. But, as always, prelims serve to kick off our entire revision. at least, the chapters and stuffs for each modules are stucked in our heads for now la. and yes, its definitely a wake up call. Last paper was yesterday... and so, Im taking a short break today and perhaps throughout the weekends. and then starting to run the engine coming monday., heh. prelims isnt end of everything.

THE BIG EXAM AWAITS. 

And, I dont wanna get bad grades for my papers. goal: at least 3 As. Do you think its possible? heh, lets see my prelims. I swear im not going to let it affect me, whether the results are good or bad.
For this prelims, I found back my inital motivation when I was in my first year. to provide my answer the same as the answer outline. And really, I just have to be alert with the words (my examiners just love to play with words, and yes, EVERYONE OF THEM), and use my brain to think and think deeply.

During this one month break, Im gonna study hard, whilst not neglecting my social life :) yes, Im still gonna go out with friends, go out for gakkai activities. But before all those, I must be consistent in my revision. This is it. I cant fail me.

Missing Chingay badly and fortunately, tmr will be the C DAY! CELEBRATION DAY AHHAHA. Cant wait for it :) Just realised that Ive been missing in action for like a month? hahah so have decided to post an entry to keep this alive.

Some peektures with my B9 Babes and Hunks (Chingay 2012 finale item teehee AWESOME! )

 Our lovely outing at Marina Barrage. Drizzled for awhile but dispersed thereafter. We played Frisbee cos all the picnic people and strangers went to hide under the shelter and we had the space ALL FOR OURSELVES. teehee! And I just fricking realise, WE DIDNT TAKE A GROUP PHOTO DURING OUR OUTING!! WHERE ARE THE HUNKS?!

Us waiting for the bus' arrival to fetch whole lot of us 1000 people over to F1 Pit for our glamourous performance!

A picture with my fellow too awesome trainers and my BLOCK BBBBBBB-BEEEP!

Our trainers lou hei session during the Chinese New Year period. ^^

With ITAC and NP, in our costumes!!

aye had to resize it. anyway, credits to the photographer Benjamin Lim! such a wonderful photo!

On a side note, same as last year, exactly before exams, IM HOPING TO GET A MICROWAVE OVEN. HAHA coolios. So, im gonna set the same expectations again. Get good grades i.e. 3 first class and Ill get myself the fricking microwave and bake at home! TEEHEE

-strawberry shortcake

tadahhh! Nicely done by my cousin. She's a great baker. hmm it is baker? kay whatever it is called. She had a recipe blog and... I secretly surfed her site whenever I felt the urge to bake hahhahah shhhhh secret.

-muffins

Looks super delicious right! Same thing, done by my cousin. Here's her website: http://www.needmorenoms.blogspot.com/

-cookies
-oreo mud pie
GOSH! tempting! alluring! salivating! HAHHA
chants* after exam after exam*

Been surfing the net since yesterday till today. with sleeping time interval of course. BLOGSHOPPING!OMG I SWEAR BLOGSHOPS ARE SUPER SINNED. WASTE MONEY ONLY SERIOUSLY! And, im so damn tempted to purchase the clothes. ughhh money money money where else does money come from? YOUR BOSS. And so, Im gonna study and work! wish me luck wont you? :/
And oh, popular blogshops are crazy. I mean those buyers! for less than an hour, the clothes are swept empty! sold out super fast!!! cry die me. Always indecisive. forever indecisive! forever alone! madness.

Lastly, 2 more photos of myself HAHA

Balloon from the Chingay finale, decorations. Koped from my friend. hahahha retardedly stared at the balloon. lol

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TADAH MY RETARDED FACE! 

with airena dongsaeng. we are damn pretty kekekekke credits to Charlotte's Camera! too pretty already, cant take it. HAHA

Chingay
Prelims
Exams
TG
Korean Class
Intern
Seeds of Hope
21st

Oooh lala! Super packed, and I likey! :) Somehow I love working a lot, like squeezing myself dry. Anyway, writing/drafting a resume is no easy feat. And thats just a generic resume. Not yet integrated the relevant skills for the individual firms yet. and whats more, need to write cover letter. :/

This week gonna be very very very packed with Chingay, practically daily. yes everyday. monday to saturday. Well, its the last lap already, what can I say? Let this be the same to my exams and prelims. Last intensive chionging lap :) till then!

Because, giving up is easy, the strong does not opt for an easy route.

Procrastination is a bitch.
A phenomenon that almost everyone faces.

Barely a month into 2012, challenges popped up simultaneously. And, I kind of broke down yesterday. Crying does not solve the problem anyway. So, we have to take concrete actions precisely that! No point sitting still, or emotionally affected or talk talk talk, and not do! This is cliche but thats the truth. And no, truth does not hurt. It does not hurt, only if you have been through tougher season than this. We say when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. But how many people truly understand what this phrase means? It takes infinite period for a person to be wise and a wise to understand the profound/in depth meaning of the phrases. Guidances may seem simple, sometimes short. But thats only the superficial level. you have to go in deeper, feel for it, apply it and do it.

Things are simple initially, but cause we are humans with complex brain nerves, cells and other functions that make things... complicated and not so simple.

Though we are now all aware of the challenges Chingay posed to us, we cant deny that Chingay is really an avenue for us to enjoy, a short escapade away from our other problems. And, Im happy that I have not make the wrong move and friends are around to encourage me take up the role as a trainer. It is indeed a different perspective, and in fact, a better stepping stone to touch the obstacles. I have joined NDP, YOG, CHINGAY as participants, but none of these past events invoked a huge impact on me i.e. less degree challenges. In conclusion then was that, I didnt really truthfully gained much from them. But of course, good fortune kindly accumulates little by little as I go for the trainings and overcoming small little challenges. NOW, as a trainer, I am able to see even bigger challenges, and with my studies, other gakkai activities, friends, family, outside commitments on the other few hands. Its tough to juggle all. All in all, be happy to have challenges, because its only when humans are faced with bigger issue that we start to expand our life-force and have greater growth. For example, Singapore then and now. The growth is clearly evident. From a fishing village till now. And challenges will not stop here for us. It will only gets greater, bigger and then much bigger. It requires a humongous determination to consistently reminding ourselves to not give up. Because, giving up is easy, the strong does not opt for an easy route.

Will go for a half year mugging and chionging period. See you in June :)

What peak period is it now. My pocket's gonna burn a big big hole. Friends 21st birthdays! to be happy or sad. hahaha. anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR! Yes, I know Im damn slow. This year gonna be an exciting year! After birthday parties and more celebrations, there comes the examination then internship and vacation plans. Followed by the anxious results released, then the maddening eCr session when many cursed and swore. Guess, university's schedule is much more preferred than the JC and Secondary school schedules. Perhaps, I those routined schedules ever since Primary school, that would be around... 12 years of routined timetable? so, coming 1.5 more years would be the flexible uni life schedule I get to enjoy till I graduate and finally got a seat in any industry. Aiming to work in the MNCs or stats board, then pursue my Masters at Japan, then settle down in the MOE sector as an Econs teacher :) That shall be it! Econs is really fun :) So cuteeee!!!

Got to apply for interns and plan for my 21st real soon!! cant wait for them! hhahahhahha am I mad or what?

Attitude Problem

A lot of things happened and I totally have to no idea of where to begin with. So, I wrote this random 'opening' to my preceding entry. hmm, start with Chingay shall we?

Just felt that we could have done better. I should have controlled my temper, to embrace, not just to tolerate. Cos' there's limit to a person's tolerance, but its unlimited to embrace. And before today, or rather before that particular training, i was still tolerating. Perhaps, thats why I blew up that day. Problems are that the central command are not giving the trainers enough time to coach/update new changes as and when. Perhaps, the communication part could have done better via good liasing with block in charge. Then again, 8 to 12 groups with only 2 Block ICs is not enough. How do we expect them to run to and fro umpteen times for say 90m at least? They arent track runners yea. So I suggested in a sarcastic plus angsty manner, "perhaps the trainers should just use handphones during training to communication with the block in charge." So block ICs wouldnt have to run so much and, when there are new/LAST MINUTE changes, we can be notified immediately via sms. Maybe this method is a little absurd i.e. not the usual way, but at least this method ensures everyone knowing the changes quick. And i guess, rather obvious, my suggestion wasnt taken into consideration cos' people there, then, thought im just spitting angsty comments. And what was remembered, again I guess, is my hot temper. lol great? This isnt the end to it, problem doesnt just lie with the top management crisis, but also amongst the trainers. and surprisingly, it wasnt the problem with the participants but the trainers and above. what a joke. With trainers i wrote, just meant trainer. ONE. my partner. I would really hope that what I heard was just a hearsay/heard wrongly/interpret wrongly. The info that I got was, "he said, 'you always no voice one leh'." This means, he's always doing the double work; admin and training. Simply said, I AM DOING NOTHING. applause please. who was the one that did the training in PA. who was the one who tried to shout during group training at f1 pit. I was the one who needed all help. clearly, we could have swapped roles, i suggested for that a few times, but he rejected. Now what? Im doing nothing? Right, maybe I shouldnt have exerted so much. Look, I dont expect him/them to appreciate my efforts, but please dont discredit my efforts. Seriously... Im dreading.

Studies, fine with i feel that I could do better than just being fine. FCH!

For the past week, Ive been falling sick even till now. Super upset! Guess what? I have no voice :) great way to end the year yes? :(

Tried baking cupcakes for the first time, and was a success :) good commentaries by friends and neighbours, despite it looking plain. great! and for the first time, i didnt like 30 plus cupcakes at one go. Didnt get to try full cupcakes, just a few bites here and there and ample to make me fall ill :P

writing blog entry is such a chore..

brumboomdoomdoodoodododo

hellyeah, I have! how awesome is that :D

And, in a blink of eyes, 2011 gonna be over soon... That means, the most dreaded big big examinations' round the corner. But before that, many jolly events gonna unleash itself infront of us or me at least. Christmas! New year! Chinese new year! friends' 21st! and maybe valentines day? lol Ya' know, I cant wait to get new pieces of clothes :P despite the overflowing wardrobe and me having to 'borrow' my mum's closet to hold my stuff. hiakhiak she's ranting, everyday she steps into her room and spot those clothes hanging around and inside her closet. HAHHAHA told ya, i need a closet revamp. BIGGER CLOSET. but somehow, I just dont wear prettily. lol someone please empathise with me can? Perhaps, Im just lazy to wear pretty clothes out. Cos' with pretty outfit, my actions have to be pretty also. Hence, no big movements from me, no HAHAHA from me, no lame and random stuff from me. So as to say, ONLY POISELOOK is allowed. so difficult to maintain la!~~~ Its only appropriate of elaine to wear only shorts/jeans and tshirts. simple like that. and a backpack. :)

My year end resolution. (gonna carry forward to the next year)
1. still gonna get my fricking grade 3-5 for guitar
2. manage time well and start baking as and when or else the ingrdients' will be expired :( (vacation plans)
3. Learn at least 2 languages
4. be a better daughter, a better friend
5. WORK! go for internship. and SAVE LUI (vacation plans)
6. no more nonsense from me, and start chionging for exams! count down 3mths to prelim
7. abide by the diet rules
8. learn new skills; first aid, computer, etc and whatever 

So yup! Thats bout it! :) go elaine go!