time for a change

My sister says, "sis, you dont seem happy. you keep ranting"

thinking back, true enough, i do think im not happy. the happiness i had when i celebrated my 21st, had outings, earned money etc do not stay long. Hence, her words actually allows me to  further reflect on my buddhist practice. what have I done? Lazy monster just overwhelms me. And... i dont walk what i preach.

time to change :)