Exams over

Im gonna pen down my after thoughts about examinations and papers before i forgot all about the moments the anxiety the excitement the sadness the stress i had to handle when i was still a student.

I was never an excellent student since primary school. My math was pretty alright. Scoring full marks for a few times. England however, was my poorest subject. Up until now. Haha that's cos im stronger and more fluent in my own mother tongue- Chinese. Well, i speak Chinese at home :) and family doesn't speak English at all when i was young. Cos no one to speak English with! My siblings were too young. No English newspapers. No Google. Except one teacher and assessment books. Only managed to clear my grammar: those basic like is are was were when i was primary 5. How late. Primary 6, psle i got myself a mediocre results. Good enough to enter express stream though that was lower than my prelims, hence lower than i expected.

Got into neighbourhood school. Many times i felt upset about it. Due to rumours it had, spread around by those gossip mongers. Its not that bad actually. Just that standards are pretty low. But then again, neighbourhood school like this can't set any higher standards eh? I mean, they improved and are trying to. But when compared to elite school or better ones, they are still far off. I can't be proud of it. Neither do i feel embarrassed. Really. Who am i to feel embarrassed by the school and it is myself who got such low score? (my friends do feel that. And that's one thing that i don't understand. You must have looked down upon yourself) anyway, math dipped. Juggled with other 8subjects totally stressful. That's an increase of 5subjects since primary?! When streaming into sec3 class, im glad that the principal used our batch as the guinea pig. Allowed us to choose class we want to enter. Of given the official route, i would have been in the second class where we don't get to take pure science and a math. Sec3 was terrible. Math flunk like crazy. But all in all due to the effort put in, i manage to scrap through olevels and get into a neighbourhood JC :)

SRJC is truly a good jc with a lot of dedicated teachers. I cant express my gratitude for them more, so I've decided to go back to coach Econs :) really love my year2 teachers. Thanks to the then principal, Mr Tan, who assigned our class (lousiest) the best teachers. Hod and senior teacher. What do you think? My results have improved but still i did not perform to standards for alevels and so this time round i didn't manage to scrap through that. Id like to attribute the reason for underperforming to other damn factor. I used to dislike it cos i had the pae (honeymoon) period at tpjc and it was so much fun. Then again, its pae. Given that one month in tpjc, srjc suits me the best, that what i can say now for sure.

Entered SIM with the mindset of geting first class. I've been praying and chanting for that for 3years. Or minimal, no failure. I didn't want to retake, waste time, waste money, waste effort.

Year1:
Econs -61 (tough paper 2011)
Ibm-56
Psoc-43(eww)
Math1- 80
Stats 1-60(lower than prelims)

Year 2:
poa- 71
Esap-71
Macro- 60( SERIOUSLY UNDERPERFORMED. MOST REGRETFUL. GOT 80 FOR PRELIMS!!)
ME- 58 (killer paper 2012)

Year 3 PRELIMS
Micro- 60
Msm- 86
Mm- 56
Otia- 52

Expect 3As this year.

Having to talk so much. One thing: NEVER GIVE UP. Even when studying for exams. YOU NEED STAMINA to study. Take 5mins break every 1hr is fine if you are feeling unproductive (or no drive to keep going). BE CONSISTENT. Especially if you know you are a slow learner, like me. Like what people say, you have to work doubly hard, triple hard than those who are gifted. 10,000Hours- by the book titled The Outlier. Happened to find this printed page given by jc physics teacher to encourage us to put in more effort. It says even music prodigy requires 10,000 hrs of practice to become a 'genius'. Albert Einstein too!

Till August. Actual proof to be shown :)

Sorry fir the incoherence..